Dream: Gracie slid under a door

I dream I go into Gracie’s room to get a breather. She doesn’t know I’m there and slides in under the door. I am surprised and I say, “hey! How did you do that?” At first she defended as if she didn’t do it and then she said she just didn’t know how she did it but that she always does. I watched how her face changed and imagined I was talking to her angel. She talked to me about this and I answered and I was happy to make something impossible possible. She said she does this when I’m meditating, doing dreamwork, etc. So I realized that because I wasn’t doing that anymore I was able to see something really beautiful in her. But then I flipped out of this and was talking to a Wizard who was very upset with the hologram I created and said that it’s one thing to talk about when there is time but another when there is no time and that was no time plus no time so what I said would have an impact for 50 years. I told him I didn’t know and I was sorry. He said to be more careful with my words.

There was a game people were playing in No Time. I had no clothes on at first but found some laying around and put them on before anyone noticed. Then we just started playing games, like leapfrog. It was fun.–

Dream: Eating Snake

In the dream, I am seeing through my own eyes. Just watching and observing. Seeing what’s going on.

There is a lot of movement and action and activity and people are just very excited about something or other. When I try to recall it, it is like images on a movie screen moving too fast, or like trying to focus on something while swimming in a pool.

But there is one part that is clear. Someone has a snake, is chopping it up with people and eating it. I have a clear image of a snake being sliced in half length-wize and they are eating it like a sandwich. There is juice coming out from the middle and it could be seen as being gross but I watch them to see what they will do. They just eat it as if it’s not gross but are eating really slowly and looking around and I think they don’t like it.

I do not have a clear picture of the person or people or environment, but just a clear image of a destroyed snake getting eaten by someone who I don’t think wants to eat it.

Dream: Poorest of the Poor

In the dream, a person has visited the house. But this is not my house. It has the feeling of the old farmhouse but even worse – it’s not mine, even though I”m acting like it is. What I mean by that is that even though I was in it, I had the feeling like I was trying to pretend that I knew the house, that is was mine. So right from the beginning, sitting on a couch beside someone I’m thinking “who is she?…why is she here?…what does she want???…and there is nothing in the space for me to connect and ground with. I think at first I thought she was in the wrong house, got the wrong person but then she kept asking questions and wouldn’t leave.

So then it happens that we go into the kitchen. Gracie is hungry. I don’t like this kitchen, don’t like the food that’s in the cupboards, don’t like the way the woman is looking at me, but I get that she is observing me like a CAS worker feeling. But at the same time I realize that she also finally picks up that she is also in the wrong house, that she has to go. The energy shifts and it’s lighter. So I”m feeling really aware of everything I say and do, how I speak to Gracie, and how it will be perceived. I open a cupboard and am looking. It’s all boxed and canned food and I hate it all. I can’t think about what we have that we can eat. The woman is talking and making excuses about why she was here and how come she has to go now. She says she can see my schedule is full and she is sorry to bother me, etc.
But at the same time she says that I also “lose it” internally – I can’t think of food, I can’t think of what to say to Gracie, I feel so guilty for not being a better mom, I feel so tired, I feel so disconnected to this stupid house and want out but don’t want to tell her it’s not my house otherwise it would look bad, and I just want to collapse on the ground – but I get that would be “soggy back pack” so instead I just turn and lean against the counter and I take a few deep breaths. This signals to Gracie to back off and the woman too. It gives her an out. She says she can see I have a lot going on and she is sorry to bother me.
I’m alittle annoyed now that she is leaving because it just starts to get better. Once gracie backs off and I breath I can think of what I want to eat. Gracie pulls down cat food and for a moment I had even thought of eating that. but then I say No there is something better. I start to pull out things from the cupboards with an idea. Also I figure what to say to Gracie to stop her – I had said something earlier like “get out of my head” and I had thought that was a mistake but it actually worked and the woman nodded and took notes. She seemed to like what I was saying and doing, taking notes and smiling.


Richard Wrote:

This dream seems to be about the remembered state when you were really at the lowest low of being poor. It was like you were in a borrowed self.  Now you can change this dream by thinking about how you really want the house and imagine living in it each day fully.  Think of it more in superlatives to the degree that you can.  What is the best house (self) that you can imagine?

Dream: Big, Black Truck & hill

In the dream, I’ve parked a big black truck on a green grassy meadow and then when I back away it starts to slip. So I go back to it quickly. I can get it parked and get it to stop but then someone else comes by sort of asking what’s up. There is a lot of water coming out of the earth and into a low area where there is drainage. There’s no way to explain what’s up. It just is what it is. It’s not hurting anyone.

I return to the school where I had a group of children and I find the district managers are all there, I recongize them by their uniforms. So then I go to do a quick count of my kids. Someone has left their kids with me, so I don’t count those and I count mine and I only have 3 instead of 8 and the rest must be at the playground. I want to get them before the manager asks how many kid I have. I feel like I haven’t done anything wrong but then know that if they find this out they will perceive it as really wrong.

I am standing in the grass near the truck.  A guy is doing some sort of testing for people on his crew. He shows me a picture and asks me to copy it. I do and he finds I didn’t do as good as I could. He says, nevermind that picture. Think about a strong woman standing on a field pushing up against a strong man. And I summon all my strength and push him. He cannot push me over. He tries and my legs take the weight and it’s easy. He is surprised. I’m stronger than he is. He puts his arms down. Okay, he says. And I nod my head. Okay.

Dealing With Nightmares


Richard Hastings published this on June 19, 2015 http://www.dreamsforpeace.wordpress.com


What should your attitude be after you have had an intense nightmare or have gone through a horrific experience in real life?

When most people begin working with what is happening with themselves,  the first goal they have is to get rid of the recurrence of the negative feelings.   When you are feeling a great deal of fear because the memories of some horror like being in war or being with an abusive person get triggered constantly,  the actual experience in your body of the negative emotion can be so awful that the only thing you can think of is getting rid of it as quickly as possible. Most people do a lot of coping strategies like alcohol or drugs or relationships to forget the pain.

As awful as the feelings are to cope with, the goal is NOT to completely forget the nightmare or keep it from recurring.  Nightmares in the dream world are just messengers.   They are not enemies to be killed and forgotten.  How could this be if they feel so intensely bad?   There is a key to doing internal work that is so powerful that once you learn it, everything will change for you.   What is the key?

The key is that almost everything you develop positively in yourself is preceded by something negative.   When I was 21,  a friend of mine convinced to begin running longer distances.   The first couple of days of running were so painfully awful that it was hard to imagine going back to it.   He told me that one day, if I kept with the running, that I would be able to run for an hour easily.  It was something way beyond my imagination because 15-20 minutes were really tough.  Gradually with many repetitions the pain gave way to more joy.  After a few months I was able to run for an hour.   It was exhilarating.

When you are developing a great new capacity inside, it is a similar and sometimes much more difficult process to get to.  If a young man goes off to war and faces the threat of having to kill someone or  of being killed,  it can put him into a really fearful place.   Long after the threat is over, even in the safest of places,  the fear remains, especially in his sleep in the form of nightmares.   Why do they persist? They persist because what he was supposed to be developing instead of how to kill others was how to live in peace and harmony with others, not war. The nightmare is a constant memory of undeveloped capacity. Since creating peace and harmony is such a big capacity to develop, the nightmares and fear serve as a reminder to him just how undeveloped these capacities really are. They will persist for as long as they are undeveloped.   So it isn’t really that we are trying to rid ourselves of the memories of war or of having been abused, but to develop new capacities that keep war and abuse from happening in the real world.   This is the journey of the soul.   The nightmares are the messengers of just how much progress we have  or have not made. When a challenge is big like creating world peace, the memories are there so that you won’t give up developing the new thing.

When I learned this key to development many years ago,  I started the habit of getting really excited when I had a nightmare rather than being really upset or despondent.  I realized that when I had a nightmare, it just meant that I had a lot of work to do inside of myself to develop something new.   This all began when I was fired from my employment for the first time.  I used to dream about the person firing me and me swearing at her.   When I woke up from the bad feelings, I just said to myself that I have a lot of work to do to detach from what she did and then keep helping people with the transformation work.

So the key to a nightmare or the key to working with memories of abuse is that they are just messengers that something big and positive wants to develop inside.   When you can get excited about the new thing, the memories and nightmares, though they may persist for awhile, are not so intense.