I also dream that I am offered grapes and I have one and it is sweet and delicious but I am very full and I say no thank you. Grapes are my absolute favourite fruit and so even as the woman is taking them back I think “wow – how weird that I don’t even want grapes.”
My daughter and I were at an amusement park and were going down to see the whale show. The bleachers were set up beside the ocean. We go down there and there are 3 orca whales that are interacting with the people in the front row. They are playful and beautiful. So magestic. She comes down and is in a great mood then she just jumps right into the water. I’m not concerned at first. I know she can swim. But then instead of coming up to me she swims farther into where the whales are swimming and even past them. A lifeguard jumps out to get her. The whole audience is hushed as they wait. The lifeguard gets her and brings her back. She had swam very deep and very far away. Never coming up for air but not appearing to struggle. I hold her and hug her and say ‘Oh my girl. I love you so much. You scared me.” She doesn’t understand what the big deal was. I don’t know what to tell her.
(In the time when the lifeguard is swimming out to her and the audience is hushed I am feeling ashamed that she just jumped like that and I didn’t protect her. I feel that the audience is judging me and that it appears she doesn’t respect me.)
It is nice to hear from you. In the first dream you can think of yourself as your daughter, while in the second dream you can think of your daughter being you and it being her.
In the first dream you (as your daughter’s age) want to speak, but you as the mother want to her stop in a violent way. So you can say that you are violent with yourself from speaking out more probably in a positive way about the big dreams you have and the things you want to do. The second dream is clearer about it. You have 3 big dreams(goals in your life) which are symbolized by the 3 Orcas and at first you can just dive into to achieve them, but then you get fearful of going too deep and too far and begin to panic so you send out the rescue to get yourself back to where you are right now.
The way you are raising your daughter and leading your life is allowing her and you to have big dreams and to go for them but you are fearful of going too deep and too far so then you do everything you can to stop them even being violent as in the first dream. The fear began at the current age your daughter is and that is why you are violent to shut it down because you are so fearful that something bad is going to happen to her because something bad happened to you at that age.
So you can say that you are doing a wonderful job raising your daughter and that is leading her and you to be able to have big dreams and aspirations, but there is a fear that something bad is going to happen that keeps you from going after the bigger things and thus encouraging her to bigger things.
As soon as you address the fear you can be thinking much larger about your life.
In October 2009, I shared a “dream” with Richard that I had when I was 15. In the scenario I was being over-powered by someone I knew.
This “dream” haunted me for the later part of my teenage years and into my early adulthood because a counsellor I had told at the time thought it didn’t sound like a dream to her. She thought it sounded like it had really happened and that I had disassociated because of the trauma of the experience.
Richard’s interpretation which I share here really put things into perspective for me. Either it was a dream and could be taken metaphorically to be a message about oppression and powerlessness which I was truly living in, or it was real in which case I could still consider the metaphor of the experience and could investigate further.
By considering the metaphor, I could actually begin to detach from the fear for the first time since the experience and begin to develop a degree of peacefulness I had never known before.
Here is our dialogue about the topic.
On Mon, Oct 19, 2009 at 8:09 AM, Rachel Pellegrini
For many years I have been a workshop facilitator for The Virtues Project and have used the strategies of the virtues project in my classrooms, family, and in my personal healing. Funny that you say my dreams are saying I need peacefulness now because that was always my goal of course, but I first needed courage, determination,
forgiveness etc. etc. (qualities I have been practicing for a number of
years now) in order to get me to the place now where I can finally embrace peacefulness with my whole heart.
> wrote that I had achieved justice and that it was now a time for peace it
> really hit a cord with me and rang true. It seemed to me that I had
> achieved my aim and there is a great peace that accomplishes that.
> It feels wonderful to be here now at a place where I feel peacefulness in my
> life and am ready to do what needs to be done to maintain it.
> I am glad that I sent you that last dream for your consideration. Your
> analysis has been, and will continue to be helpful as I work through this
> stage of my personal growth.
> Warmest regards,
> On Sun, Oct 18, 2009 at 12:11 AM, Richard Hastings
>> Dear Rachel,
>> It is really nice to see that you are dealing with some really
>> important issues in your life and that you are going at them in a
>> really great way. The first thing that I want to say is that it is
>> important always in the first phase of dream interpretation to deal
>> with things metaphorically rather than literally because there is more
>> to be learned on a metaphoric level than on a literal one.
>> In real life rape is forcing someone to have sexual intercourse
>> without their consent. In the dream world sexual intercourse, if it
>> is positive, is the coming together of two sets of spiritual qualities
>> so that they can work together to achieve something greater. When
>> you interact with someone else’s qualities, then you can learn them
>> and integrate them into your life so that they can produce something
>> new. Rape is being forced to have intercourse with the dark side or
>> ego side of someone. It causes fear and powerlessness and prevents
>> people from producing really positive things.
>> So the purpose of the dream is to actually do the opposite of what
>> the dream is giving you. Being raped by someone at 15 in
>> metaphorical terms means being forced to interact really closely with
>> his ego, which is all of his bad qualities. What is particularly
>> difficult is that 15 is the age at which you are no longer a child,
>> where you are taking your first steps into adulthood. So the
>> challenge you had at that age was that you were living with fear and
>> forced to be his partner as if you were his partner even though you weren’t.
>> against your will. The consequence of rape is the feeling of
>> powerlessness and fear so I am sure that these are the feelings that
>> you have had to live with in relation to someone.
>> So what the dream is looking for is the opposite in positive
>> terms, but it is presenting you the rape because it is warning you of
>> the difficult times ahead with someone and his dysfunctions.
>> quality of peacefulness so that you could be guided along your own
>> path. Instead you got him and his ego, a person barely surviving his
>> own life. This is not to be said for you to be angry with him. He
>> was probably doing the best he could. The fact is that what you
>> needed you didn’t get, so now you have the opportunity to give it to
>> yourself so that those who come after you as well as you own self can
>> benefit from it.
>> One of the ways you can tell about the real rape or imagined is
>> to analyze how this person used power. If he had power issues,
>> then you might investigate it further, but if he didn’t, then it is
>> more likely that it is a dream state and not a real one. One way
>> or the other, he wasn’t the positive person you needed when you were
>> making your own first steps toward adulthood and this is the critical
>> issue for you.
>> So one of the big questions you are going to have to ask yourself
>> is why peacefulness? Why not courage, determination, love, honesty,
>> or a host of other virtues? The virtue of peacefulness will allow
>> you to stay fully on your own own unique path, which is different
>> probably than almost everyone you know. The further your path is away
>> from the mainstream the more you need the quality of peacefulness. It
>> allows you to be free from distractions and trappings of the world.
>> You are likely already on that path, but now your poised to take some
>> major steps forward. That is why you are so keen to do the spiritual
>> Warmest greetings